Thursday, August 31, 2006

Mom's Love...



Mom...god's greatest gift in life for any individual on this earth...It is intense in my case since Iam the only child to her..she combines all her love and affection and pours everything to me which has to be shared by my siblings...unfortunately I dont have any...I could recollect my childhood days when I used to wait for her in the evening,sitting anxiously on the balcony...staring at the roads...waiting for her to return from office...atlast brings me a piece of chocolate and gives it to me..I could still remember how she dresses me and takes me to school...It was always difficult in her case to grow me up when compared to others since she is a working women and she didnt have the support of any of my relatives or grandparents...

How can I forget the days when she prepares me a hot spicy biriyani,idly,dosai,vadai hehe....How can I forget the days when I used to play with her hair even when I was in college...How can I forget the days when she gets up before me at 3'o clock and prepare me a hot cup of tea during examinations...How can I forget the days when I used to fight with her during cricket matches..not letting her to watch megaserials...:)How can I forget the days when I used to go to marketplace with her (not with the intention of helping her but to sight the girls on the supermarket...hehe)How can I forget the days of her standing in the gate and waving hands to me when I leave the house and when I start my bike...How can I forget the days when I used to go to the kitchen in a hurry and take the half cooked dosa and disturb her like anything by mixing some masalas when she is cooking... All these incidents reside in my eyes....

But Iam in this shit part of the world,leaving all my happiness and moments which I had with her..My mom always has a sad feeling that I should have been a doctor..not just because I couldnt get medicine seat but since I left the Medicine seat which I obtained...I could still remember her saying when I got my first month salary from HCL CISCO and when I got blessing from her..she said "I should have been a doctor" and she carries pride in saying that Iam doctor's mother"...not my son works for ABCD software company earning huge clean white currency notes..." It really irked me a lot...It was always ringing in my mind...that she wasnt satisfied with my 20k and the medicine seat is still ringing on her mind...

I was always thinking how can I make her happy...Atlast god showed me a way of studying in abroad with Master of Science and recently Master of Business Administration in Germany...Ok....My MS may not have the ranks of stanfords or MITs or Oxfords or Cambridges or my MBA may not be equivalent to Havards or IIMs...nevertheless this MS and MBA makes my mother say recently in phone..."Sathish....Iam a proud mother walking in the streets that my son is studying in abroad doing MS and MBA"...neither I was born with a silver spoon to be sponsored by my parents to study in US,UK,Canada,Australia...nor I was great great brilliant chap to obtain a seat in Stanford or MIT or Havard....With my limited resources and god's grace I could study in atleast arguably one of the best Technical Universities in Germany without financially burdening my parents...According to me...this MS and MBA is just a piece of paper stating Iam qualified for MS and MBA but this paper wipes out my mom's tears and feelings of me not being a doctor....

I miss you amma...
Sathish Kumar S

3 comments:

Vignesh said...

Dude,

Just read your comments about your mother and it actually got tears to my eyes. I really do miss being with my family and especially with my mother. All the wonderful things she has done for me came up before me, when I was reading your blog. Our parents are the real Gods.

Karthik Bhaskaran said...

Yes, its a bit painful to leave someone who u've been with most of the time...to leave someone who has been a predominant part of our happiness...to leave someone who has given us the positive energy and has shown us the right direction...to leave someone who always always always thought about our well being... :( ...for all the teachings and good wishes...

But it was our decision isnt it :)
We choose something over something isnt it ????

And we are supposed to be intellligent beings insnt it ???
:)

There should be no room for regret :)

Might sound philosophical :)
But we have been masters of our actions :)
It is tough to decide sometimes what exctly we want and when...

Anonymous said...

Dear Satish,

I just read ur article.....it really touched my soul...I cried while reading every line.

I could identify my mother in this article.

I can understand what ur mother must have felt while reading ur article since I am also a mother.

God bless u! May all ur wishes come true. It is my ashirwad for u.

Take care.
Meenakshi Gautam