Friday, July 14, 2006

Loneliness has reformed me a lot...


Loneliness...the word which I read just as another word in English...but realized whats it actually after coming to Germany...I was always a lonely child...the reason is,I dont have brothers and sisters...but nevertheless accompanied by loving mom and dad,a good bunch of friends who can do whatever...It all began when I came to my Masters when I had to lead a life on my own...I was rated as one of the laziest guys in my friends circle...and even my parents stressed a lot, of doing some bit of work...I remember... even I dont take my glass of water from my place...I have never seen kitchen in my life...

But this loneliness has created some wonders in my behaviours and characters..Now..I cook my own food...wash my utensils...washing clothes...go to work..studying...I couldnt sometimes believe am I doing all these work...Its not only the cooking and washing..but this loneliness has given me a self-realization.Just remembered those days when I used to criticize my mom food...It gives me a clear indication that when a person is alone ..he gets to know more about him...There were times when I used to grudge myself for simple petty things and I have never been patience...take it from me..this loneliness has made tremendous impact on my patience...It has taught me whats relation,love and affection with parents and friends...

Just remembered those days...when mom used to prepare bhajji..when I was watching India-Pakistan Match...when she used to getup before me during exams and wake me up and prepare me a hot cup of tea....Just reminded me the day,when my father took me to hospital in TVS 50(vehicle) when I was suffering from fever even when I was in final year of engineering college...Just reminded me when my beloved friends came to airport for saying bye and all the best even at morning 4'o clock ...I didnt realize those moments much, when I was there...but now this loneliness has taught me...how valuable those moments are and can never be equivalent to the Euros,dollars and my MS....

I really dont regret this loneliness..because I have spent 23 years with my parents...and after some 4 or 5 years Iam going to spend with my wife..so this period of loneliness has taught me many values and morals which will definitely help me to lead a better and peaceful life forever..You could simply imagine how lonely I was when I wrote this article...:)

4 comments:

kicha said...

Loneliness gives us a free flow of thoughts.. sometimes it kills..

swarna said...

Excellent post. I too have just come to Europe for my Masters and I truly understand each word of what you have written!

chamster said...

I can totally understand the mood you were in when you wrote this post! Go into that state sometimes too. Especially mother waking up early during exams really struck a cord.

Keep posting!

Namitha

ramesh said...

trigerred my (g)olden days memory